well... so...

I'm going to be a teenager and go ahead and say that 100 Words by AFI kind of describes my life right now, in a way. As Davey Havok, the vocalist, said, it can be taken anyway you want, and this the way I take it.

This is the final night, boys.
Tomorrow, I'll be a different person.

We are the cracks in diamond walls.
We aren't perfect, in a world of perfection, or so it seems.

I tried to illuminate, but the shadows kill. I'm overshadowed.
I tried to appeal towards someone, but things have happened. I was forgotten, mislead.

See how I blend in with nothing?
I'm lost amongst a sea of other people that honestly don't mean much to someone.

Now beautiful boys, let's destroy.
Let's forget what happened and try to fix these things that happened.

We'll shine as the lucite breaks and falls.
We'll just watch those who aren't honest slowly fall apart.

Raise the new glitter god with the golden tears - the tears that swallow.
Set a new standard, and make others drawn to it and encased.

A smile that's touched so warms nothing.
Someone I tried to appealed to shows fake emotion.

Yesterday I burnt the sky, looked to the ground and wrapped it around me.
Yesterday, I messed so much up, and started a new chapter of life. I got confused and angry.

Still today I have so much to burn.
Today, I have a lot of things to change.

Yesterday I longed to die, fell to the ground and the ground caught me.
Yesterday, I was very resentful and felt I did something wrong. What I got mad at, saved me.

Now today I question why I fell.
Today, I wonder why I felt that way.

Deities fell to decoys, tainting what's pure.
What we thought was amazing was fake, and just messed everyone up.

Let's cleanse them all.
We need to fix everyone and that which was fake.

Infinite life reclaimed, as the shadows kill, they're overshadowed.
We're going to make this revolution endure forever. Things will happen, and hide the wretched.

We'll burn as they fade into nothing.
We'll glow and feel pain as the wretched slowly disappear.

So what can help me, to understand, somehow, why it always pains me to breathe?
I have absolutely no idea why I keep hurting inside whenever I try to calm down.

We're no longer confined because yesterday I burnt the sky.
I messed up and changed so much, but maybe it could have a good outcome in the end.

Crap happened yesterday. It wasn't entirely my fault, but partially, I think. Yet it changed me, I think. I'll try to fix all the drama involved with it on Monday.